I am BACK !!

WOW~ how long i did not update my blog d.. so lazy to blog..hee..* lazy girl* I AM~

25/12/2009: MERRY CHRISTMAS to all of u ~ =P (past tense)
On that day.. i had my celeberation at genting..with him >>> (Alvin Ang) (first time,first year)- i gave him a SEED shirt as a Christmas present, with a small hand made card (unfortunately, i forgot to take pics as a memory) too bad ~
i get a present from him also.. something that useful for my studies..=) good job !
and we met theo theo and kok wei there.. =)
Was a lot of ppl for sure to celebrated CHRISTMAS there(a very common place).. and nth much can do at there.. after count down.. we walked around and took some pics and had our supper at genting's mamak..we ate nasi lemak .. not really nice ~ =P Theo and kok wei slept so early..they said: nth to do also..feel so tired ..so sleep lo..hee - wat i think was: true also geh.. but Christmas wor..once a year,plus at genting..so wasted if sleep so early rite ? hee.. so Alvin Ang and me went to a pub and had some drink ( beer-Heineken ).. we have called theo&kok wei to join but they reject me.. =( they just wanna sleep.. swt ~ haha..
We planned to goin back after drink,, but at last.. we slept at theo's room..HAHA.. kacau them je.. =P and went back on the next day ~ that's all for my CHRISTMAS !
PICTURES TIME :






31/12/2009: HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL OF YOU ~ =P (PAST TENSE)
The last day of year 2009.. so fast.. one year was END..and a new year is coming..YEAR 2010 and we getting older and older..hee..
On that day, i had my celeberation at OPERA ( somewhere opposite suwany pyramid )- first time i went for clubbing.. hee... so nice ~ i enjoyed a lots with them!
PICTURES TIME stop writing much:
THE 4 OF US .. so sweet ~ =)


The group ~






more pictures already uploaded in facebook ya..
stop here.. END !

心痛

难过 是因为看见你难过而难过
心痛 是因为看见你心痛而心痛

你现在需要我这个朋友 所以我不会离开你
我会一直陪在你身边 直到我看见你幸福
我的付出 不需要得到回报
只希望能对你好 不要拒绝我对你的好 好吗？
有一天 当你不再需要我 我会离开 静静的消失在你生命里 ！
这是我目前为此唯一能做的事情- 虽然很痛苦很傻
但
现在要我放下你不管 我做不到 !

DONE !

yeah ~ today is 15th december 2009.. fnally i had done my exam.. but this time,i did very bad for the exam.. haiz.. (the worst exam i had done) dissapointed to myself.. did not study well.. lazy + no mood - jus hope that i can pass the 2 subjects lo.. i dun wan to retake it..PLS ~
BTW
my holidays is start from today 11.30 am.. =P (1 month holidays)-after i done my management paper, felt super relax but another way, was still worrying about my bad work..haiz.. stop thinking of it..i had a super nice lunch for today at Kinshahi-japanese food with nee.. cost us RM40.. =.= expensive huh~ aiks..coz we paid by ourself..I am so excited of my holidays although i hav no plan for it.. lol.. waiting to hanging out wit you guys yea..

回来好不好？

为什么你 总是看不见我的存在
为什么我 总是把你放在我心里的第一个位子
为什么她 可以这样子对你 但你却还是放不下她

你真的不回头看我了吗?
我真的该放弃了吗？
我不希望看见的是你后悔的眼神
在我真的决定放弃你之前
从新再爱上我好吗？

舍不得

我舍不得
可是时间回不去了
爱你很值得
只是该停了
没有我你要好好的
我舍不得
最后一次抱紧你了
我们错过的
错了就错了
不用担心我
我不爱你了
不用担心我
我走了
至少你记忆里的我是微笑的
亲爱的
有你牵着我的那些日子
真的好快乐

爱不单行

爱 只有简单笔画
却比想象复杂
很安定爱变化
我爱过几个人
也被爱过几遍
却还是没能把幸福留下
爱 是不可输的吗？
为何我还相信 他不是不欣赏
我在等一个
在等我的永恒
告诉我爱不单行 别害怕
告诉我爱不单行 相信他

chloe：我希望我的永恒是你！

RECENTLY

busying on final exam recently..dun hav mood to study wei.. how ? help me pls.. not enough time to finished all chapter if still dun wan to start.. cham! i dun wanna fail wei..i wanna PASS! 14th dec-marketing paper 15th dec-management paper.. after dat..holidays..huhu~ cannot wait for my 1 month sem break although i hav no plan..hee
went for work yesterday at jusco..promote the gps wor.. adui~ where gt ppl wanna waste the money to buy the expensive gps wor.. RM899..PAPAGO BRAND..never heard b4..haha.. A stupid guy call Galvin(the supervisor)..i hate him.. told me that target to sell out 7 gps on one day.. crazy~ u so geng u come n promote la...apa la..keep complained us nia..ask us dun keep standing there..go n ask customer to come n have a look..geram ! GPS wei.. who wanna c ? go n buy a phone better..it support GPS also wat..the price also around there..ish ! and our working time is 10am-10pm but he asked us to go at 9am..ok..nvm..our break time is 1 hour..he asked us to back in half an hour(1hour only i went back to work)ble...he told me bcoz of jcard day..arghhh!! no one wanna buy GPS on Jcard day de la..dun hav discount also.. the price is fixed.=.= and we hav to go makan one by one...=( so sien..alone go makan..kesian~ at 10pm sharp i told him i wanna back d..haha then i went back..dun care ! he treat us so bad..i dun have to treat him so good to OT..bully us nia..hmmm!!!
stop here..goin to sleep.. night everyone & YOU... =)

结束

终于 一切都结束了 但 我却觉得不习惯 不习惯没有你的打扰 不习惯没有你的消息 不习惯没有你在身边
我知道这一天会来 不意外 但 还是不能接受 为什么？
她已回到你的身边 而我 也从你心里消失了吧 你不再需要我 或许应该说不曾需要过我
绕了两大圈 结局还是一样 不明白
你满意这个结局 而我 却只想要哭
你回到你的世界 而我 依然在原地徘徊 不知所措 还是无法接受这事实吗？ 这已成了定局
我应该习惯你离去的眼神 才能让失去你变得更完整
我的叹息成了整夜的苦闷 我该努力习惯这样的气氛
我努力在你回忆里狂奔 才发现失去的爱不必再等
原来爱你是那么难预料
我知道我的一切你已不想要
任性对彼此都不好

放逐爱情

爱的感觉不同
付出的爱没有结果
想不透
我知道自己没有错
爱你的心忘了上锁
傻傻让爱变成一种折磨
你对我一点不在乎
我还是爱的不认输
对你的爱我选折了让步
被放逐在寒冷的边际
去学习 暧昧不清不是甜蜜
不再理所谓的不公平
静静的离去
轻轻的闭上眼睛

chloe： 离开你 我安静地抽离 不忍揭晓的剧情 我的泪流在心里 学会放弃！

为什么？

为什么？ 我心里有千千万万个为什么？ 有谁能替我解答吗？ 为什么事情会走到今天这种地步？为什么你可以把事情想到如此简单？ 为什么你可以对我说出那种话？ 为什么我们之间要有她的存在？ 为什么你们之间要有我的存在？ 为什么我们大家的关系这么复杂？ 你们要在回一起 我成全 我没有缠着你们不放啊 我已经选择退出 为什么总是要把我当成你们分开的理由？ 为什么你们的话题总是离不开我？ 我该怎么做才是最好的？ 是我自己的问题吗？ 是我自己放不开吗？ 我已经很努力了。。。给我一点时间好不好？不要再让我习惯你的存在好不好？ 朋友真的很难当的 你知道吗？我的心痛和我的难过。。。结束了好不好。。

我爱他

整座城市一直等着我 但 有一段感情还在漂泊
如果还有遗憾 又怎么样呢?
伤了痛了懂了
就能好了吗？
曾经依靠彼此的肩旁
如今各自在人海流浪
我爱他轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦狠狠碎过却不会忘
曾为他相信明天就是未来
情节有多坏 都不肯醒来
我爱他跌跌撞撞到绝望
我的心深深伤过却不会忘
我和他不再属于这个地方
最初的天堂 最终的荒唐
逃不开 爱越深越互相伤害
越深的依赖 越多的空白
该怎么去爱

仅仅只是朋友

她开始也挽回了 但这次 到你不答应 你不做任何回应 但我比谁都清楚 你们只是在赌气 很快的 你们就会一起了 其实我知道这一天一定会到来 只是不想去面对而已 但这是事实 我总要去面对 很快的 我和你 就不再有任何关系 仅仅只是朋友 也不能再像现在的我们 一起出去 一起吃饭 我再也不能要求你为我做些什么了 好难过 好心痛 才发现 原来你对我很重要 原来我是需要你的（但只是单方面的我） 伤心 难过 开心 快乐 想到的都是你 真的真的好想你回来我身边 但不能 你不属于我
我相信你们会幸福的 至少我们中还有人能快乐 这样就已经足够 对吧？

chloe：
从今以后 我要习惯没有你的日子
从今以后 我要过得比从前更好
从今以后 不再怀念以前的我们
从今以后 不再想念你
从今以后 不再舍不得你
从今以后 不再为你流泪
从今以后 不再为你心痛
从今以后 再也没有洪文皓这个人出现在我身命里
答应我自己-我一定要做到 ！

明白

或许你没说 或许你没做
可是我感觉到你的不同
在你的眼神 那一股閃烁
代表你已做了选择
其实你没错 你可以远走
感情事谁都不能去强求
咖啡变谈了 还可以加浓
你走了 却不会回头

没有你之后 我才明白的更多
生命有太多分分合合 难免要承受的痛
你看着我来 我看着你走
就算捂住耳朵 我还能听见你呼吸的温柔
就算我会心痛 你的好永远都填满我心中

爱一个人 需要缘分
我何苦让自己 越陷越深
别傻得用我的天真 去碰触那不安的灵魂
每一天只能痴痴地等
爱一个人 别太认真
我受伤的眼神 令人心疼
没有一个人非要另一个人才能过一生
我又何苦逼自己 面对伤痕
我知道我很难过
感情的付出不是真心就会有结果
别问怎么做 爱才能长久 这道理有一天我会懂
我知道我很难过
昨天是恋人 今天说分手就分手
别问痛要怎么解脱 多情的人注定伤得比较久
爱若变成了刺 思念也变成了痴
也许心碎就是爱情最美的样子

关于爱情 我们都想得太好
总是在伤害中才学会思考
如果时间不是往前跑 你在身旁那有多好

我爱你

~※→因為愛你.所以放手還你自由←※~

~※→因為愛你.所以不再讓你困擾←※~

~※→因為愛你.所以我逼自己離開←※~

~※→因為愛你.所以我希望她回到你身边←※~

~※→因為愛你.所以寧願自己難過←※~


但


如果我還一直深愛著你...你是否還會待在我身邊?

如果我還一直在乎著你...你是否會再多看我一眼?

是否我已不存在了...你才感覺的到我的離開?

是否我已離開了....你才感覺的到我對你的好?


Chloe: 你永远都不会感觉到吧！因为我已不再你心里！
好怀念你刚开始爱上我的那一天 虽然我不知道这天是否存在
（但 就算是骗自己也好！我仍然选择相信）

Working is tired - sunday (the last day)

sunday 22th nov - the second day and also the last day of my work.
i was late for work on that day..bcoz of someone..=.= he promised to fetch me to work but he did not, he woke up late coz his phone no battery.. alarm cannot work and i cannot called him up as well..i waited him till 9am. at last i asked nee to drive..(coz my leg was injured, cannot drive) if not we will be late!

pictures time:
me with the cadbury chocolate.. looks tasty !


the 4 of us..(we look so sweet- muaxx)





me and my lovely lily..she yang intro me this job..enjoy lots wit u~ muaxx !


me and nee incharge of this game on sunday..a very tired job.. we have to keep go and pick up the ball from floor (the balls always ran far away)..ish ! (coz my leg was injured.. nee help lots) thx !

the instruction board - the game called FINAL BOSS- how to play it ? let me tell u.. seem like easy but very hard to play..i tried ! 2 points - 5 balls.. which mean you have 5 chances..throw the balls in to any hole out of the three, stand at the distance that already fixed, at least 3 balls in..then u will get prizes..


after the day of work.. my leg cannot walk anymore..bengkak d.. when reached home..straight away went to clinic d..coz seriously cannot walk d..=.= aikss!
my leg macam ni - like the pig's leg >.<

it was a very good experience , this job was interesting and fun.. i noe lots of frens from there.. the main problem i face was they all banana..lol all cannot speak chinese one..plus my english is bad..how we communicate then ? aikss..haha.. simply talk lo..like a duck talk wit a chicken..haha !
THE END FOR MY TWO DAYS JOB ! THANKS LILY ~ I HAD LOTS OF FUN ALTHOUGH MY LEG WAS SO PAIN & TIRED ! MISS U ALL FRENS =D

Working is tired - Saturday( first day)

this was the first day of working - saturday 21st nov 9am-10pm (a long hour job) my god!
we need to reached there at 9.00am and my leg was injured in that morning when i was preparing to work..ish~ so pain.. my leg kena the plug..and blood..>< how am i goin to work like that ? but no choice..i have to.. i still went to work with the pain.
me @ nee

vanessa (lily's buddy) she is pretty..=)

Abbie(a new fren)

me with the cadbury shirt..




show u all those games prepared by Cadbury (all are interesting):
this is cowboy zone..total four games there.. but i am not clear wat are the games coz i was not incharge of this..hee

cowboy look..who ever incharge of this area have to wear the cowboy hat.

virtual games..

pinball (not much ppl like dis game coz damn boring) jus put in the ball that given and if ur ball go into the red color box..then u can win the prize.

this is called fishing wor.. pick up 5 things from the swimming pool except balls within 45 seconds then u can get everthing that u had pick up .. inside the swimming pool included cadbury chocolate,cadbury notebook, cadbury puzzle and etc (was a very tough game coz time is limited)

key chain- coloring the key chain..the most busy area..lots of kids like to coloring..ppl who incharge of this is damn cham,,lots of job to do and so dirty! haha..luckily i was not incharge of this part! fiu ~

green color monster- how to play wit it ? tell u in the next blog..coz i was incharge of this game on sunday 22th nov..=)

In Saturdat 21st nov.. i was incharge of a game called CATCH IT:


the chair inside the box have to take it out geh.. is use for kids to climb in to the box..
instruction- 2points to get 1 chance- when u go in to the box.. we will on the machine and gt wind inside to blow the objects.. you have to catch at least 8 purple flying objects(but the instruction board jus wrote 8 flying object, did not mention must b purple color, i scolded by some customer >.<) and which must on the air -flying object but (many ppl pick up on the floor =.=) especially kids although i had already told them about that..but they also pick up on the floor..tak akan i scold them rite.. have to give prize also if they catch 8- therefore..i scolded by the boss =.=


many people liked this game..coz it was challeging- very tough to catch 8 purple flying object u noe..have teknik one.. many ppl did not wan to listen to me,,swt ~
this boy liked this game very much.. played again and again..haha..


the MC was inside demo-ing with kids...she can always catch 8 purple flying objects..coz she have teknik(which i learned it from her)..geng !

that's all for Saturday.. said that 9am - 10pm but we had to clean up after that..>.<
i reached home at 12am then..ish~ OT d .. after that i went for movie(2012) wit my family(late for half and hour =.=)..coz the ticket already bought on thursday..nice movie..damn scary.. will it really happen in year 2012?
" A very tired saturday that i never been b4 "... haha..
one more day (sunday)- update on tmr ya.. tired d..hee

Working is very tired - Friday (briefing)

so busy in this few days.. now only can updated my blog..after went for the briefing on friday 20th nov... wat actually i should do is to guided ppl to play games wor..(is interesting) not promote chocolate..(damn boring)haha..ppl who purchase any CADBURY CHOCOLATE RM10 or above, they will get points.. RM10 = 10 points.. they can use those points to play any games that prepared by CADBURY..
still in the progress..this pic was took on friday..

the stuff all busying on arranging the stock !took on friday also.

everyone can purchase the cadbury chocolate in this area.. lots of stock..huhu~ i also bought lots..=D


the event, organized by CADBURY ~ and i was worked at there..=)

free of stress right now !

yeah~ i am so happy.. all assignment presentation and midterm done ! can relax for 2 weeks from now.. but jus only 2 weeks.. aikss.. bcoz final exam is coming soon..in week 9 i think..now already week5 and week 6 is start on this coming monday.. my god.. so fast! but after final, holidays coming lu.. yupi~ i love holidays.. i need it..to rest.. i am so tired with my life..i dun really enjoy my uni life.. is so stressful ~
jus now my classmate(lily) intro me a part time job, a event in pyramid on sat and sun...promote chocolate i think..hee.. not so sure..tmr goin to the briefing..at 3pm.. then i will noe it better..one day $100.. worth to work it not ? whole day wor..aikss..sure very tired! no choice..i need money..hee..feel excited..coz i dun hav much working experience.. hope will b a good experience ~ all the best !

原来你没想像中爱我

你小心翼翼牵我手
其实是朋友藏不住我
自尊也投降 活在她之下
我好傻
你字字句句说你不爱她
那又是什么让你害怕
我疑惑的是原谅 以为你留下
我好傻

我不懂
该拿什么安慰我的难受
你的存在让我更脆弱
你寸步不离像天使的她
挥霍我的爱从不放在心上
我有一丝无奈
也有一些明白
该放开

不是我不说就不再遗空等候
我不能再从你的怀抱感觉到什么
别爱我 别再说 假装爱
那是洒盐在伤口
原来你从来都没深刻爱我
我才懂不是我不心痛
其实是心没了感觉

无能为力

承诺太沉重
你背不到最后
任凭我独自堕落
是我太执着
就像那残留的灼火
微微弱弱颤抖
无法忘记 无法痊愈
我越是清醒越怕失去你
怪我太任性
只盼时间将伤痕抹去
恨你 我无能为力
你和谁创造新回忆
我一个人的悲剧
不奢求你的感激
用所有爱过的回忆 原谅着你
恨自己不能把过去 放弃
此刻我却无能为力
我们的爱变成了我自己的悲剧