~ I Love You ~ CHLOE - C.K.Y

I am BACK !!

2010-03-09T19:02:00.010+08:00

WOW~ how long i did not update my blog d.. so lazy to blog..hee..* lazy girl* I AM~

25/12/2009: MERRY CHRISTMAS to all of u ~ =P (past tense)
On that day.. i had my celeberation at genting..with him >>> (Alvin Ang) (first time,first year)- i gave him a SEED shirt as a Christmas present, with a small hand made card (unfortunately, i forgot to take pics as a memory) too bad ~
i get a present from him also.. something that useful for my studies..=) good job !
and we met theo theo and kok wei there.. =)
Was a lot of ppl for sure to celebrated CHRISTMAS there(a very common place).. and nth much can do at there.. after count down.. we walked around and took some pics and had our supper at genting's mamak..we ate nasi lemak .. not really nice ~ =P Theo and kok wei slept so early..they said: nth to do also..feel so tired ..so sleep lo..hee - wat i think was: true also geh.. but Christmas wor..once a year,plus at genting..so wasted if sleep so early rite ? hee.. so Alvin Ang and me went to a pub and had some drink ( beer-Heineken ).. we have called theo&kok wei to join but they reject me.. =( they just wanna sleep.. swt ~ haha..
We planned to goin back after drink,, but at last.. we slept at theo's room..HAHA.. kacau them je.. =P and went back on the next day ~ that's all for my CHRISTMAS !
PICTURES TIME :

31/12/2009: HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL OF YOU ~ =P (PAST TENSE)
The last day of year 2009.. so fast.. one year was END..and a new year is coming..YEAR 2010 and we getting older and older..hee..
On that day, i had my celeberation at OPERA ( somewhere opposite suwany pyramid )- first time i went for clubbing.. hee... so nice ~ i enjoyed a lots with them!
PICTURES TIME stop writing much:
THE 4 OF US .. so sweet ~ =)

The group ~

more pictures already uploaded in facebook ya..
stop here.. END !

心痛

2009-12-16T22:55:00.004+08:00

难过是因为看见你难过而难过
心痛是因为看见你心痛而心痛

你现在需要我这个朋友所以我不会离开你
我会一直陪在你身边直到我看见你幸福
我的付出不需要得到回报
只希望能对你好不要拒绝我对你的好好吗？
有一天当你不再需要我我会离开静静的消失在你生命里！
这是我目前为此唯一能做的事情- 虽然很痛苦很傻
但
现在要我放下你不管我做不到 !

DONE !

2009-12-15T19:28:00.005+08:00

yeah ~ today is 15th december 2009.. fnally i had done my exam.. but this time,i did very bad for the exam.. haiz.. (the worst exam i had done) dissapointed to myself.. did not study well.. lazy + no mood - jus hope that i can pass the 2 subjects lo.. i dun wan to retake it..PLS ~
BTW
my holidays is start from today 11.30 am.. =P (1 month holidays)-after i done my management paper, felt super relax but another way, was still worrying about my bad work..haiz.. stop thinking of it..i had a super nice lunch for today at Kinshahi-japanese food with nee.. cost us RM40.. =.= expensive huh~ aiks..coz we paid by ourself..I am so excited of my holidays although i hav no plan for it.. lol.. waiting to hanging out wit you guys yea..

回来好不好？

2009-12-11T03:39:00.002+08:00

为什么你总是看不见我的存在
为什么我总是把你放在我心里的第一个位子
为什么她可以这样子对你但你却还是放不下她

你真的不回头看我了吗?
我真的该放弃了吗？
我不希望看见的是你后悔的眼神
在我真的决定放弃你之前
从新再爱上我好吗？

舍不得

2009-12-09T13:59:00.002+08:00

我舍不得
可是时间回不去了
爱你很值得
只是该停了
没有我你要好好的
我舍不得
最后一次抱紧你了
我们错过的
错了就错了
不用担心我
我不爱你了
不用担心我
我走了
至少你记忆里的我是微笑的
亲爱的
有你牵着我的那些日子
真的好快乐

爱不单行

2009-12-09T01:55:00.002+08:00

爱只有简单笔画
却比想象复杂
很安定爱变化
我爱过几个人
也被爱过几遍
却还是没能把幸福留下
爱是不可输的吗？
为何我还相信他不是不欣赏
我在等一个
在等我的永恒
告诉我爱不单行别害怕
告诉我爱不单行相信他

chloe：我希望我的永恒是你！

RECENTLY

2009-12-06T01:11:00.003+08:00

busying on final exam recently..dun hav mood to study wei.. how ? help me pls.. not enough time to finished all chapter if still dun wan to start.. cham! i dun wanna fail wei..i wanna PASS! 14th dec-marketing paper 15th dec-management paper.. after dat..holidays..huhu~ cannot wait for my 1 month sem break although i hav no plan..hee
went for work yesterday at jusco..promote the gps wor.. adui~ where gt ppl wanna waste the money to buy the expensive gps wor.. RM899..PAPAGO BRAND..never heard b4..haha.. A stupid guy call Galvin(the supervisor)..i hate him.. told me that target to sell out 7 gps on one day.. crazy~ u so geng u come n promote la...apa la..keep complained us nia..ask us dun keep standing there..go n ask customer to come n have a look..geram ! GPS wei.. who wanna c ? go n buy a phone better..it support GPS also wat..the price also around there..ish ! and our working time is 10am-10pm but he asked us to go at 9am..ok..nvm..our break time is 1 hour..he asked us to back in half an hour(1hour only i went back to work)ble...he told me bcoz of jcard day..arghhh!! no one wanna buy GPS on Jcard day de la..dun hav discount also.. the price is fixed.=.= and we hav to go makan one by one...=( so sien..alone go makan..kesian~ at 10pm sharp i told him i wanna back d..haha then i went back..dun care ! he treat us so bad..i dun have to treat him so good to OT..bully us nia..hmmm!!!
stop here..goin to sleep.. night everyone & YOU... =)

结束

2009-12-05T23:10:00.004+08:00

终于一切都结束了但我却觉得不习惯不习惯没有你的打扰不习惯没有你的消息不习惯没有你在身边
我知道这一天会来不意外但还是不能接受为什么？
她已回到你的身边而我也从你心里消失了吧你不再需要我或许应该说不曾需要过我
绕了两大圈结局还是一样不明白
你满意这个结局而我却只想要哭
你回到你的世界而我依然在原地徘徊不知所措还是无法接受这事实吗？这已成了定局
我应该习惯你离去的眼神才能让失去你变得更完整
我的叹息成了整夜的苦闷我该努力习惯这样的气氛
我努力在你回忆里狂奔才发现失去的爱不必再等
原来爱你是那么难预料
我知道我的一切你已不想要
任性对彼此都不好

放逐爱情

2009-12-05T16:18:00.003+08:00

爱的感觉不同
付出的爱没有结果
想不透
我知道自己没有错
爱你的心忘了上锁
傻傻让爱变成一种折磨
你对我一点不在乎
我还是爱的不认输
对你的爱我选折了让步
被放逐在寒冷的边际
去学习暧昧不清不是甜蜜
不再理所谓的不公平
静静的离去
轻轻的闭上眼睛

chloe：离开你我安静地抽离不忍揭晓的剧情我的泪流在心里学会放弃！

为什么？

2009-11-28T14:31:00.005+08:00

为什么？我心里有千千万万个为什么？有谁能替我解答吗？为什么事情会走到今天这种地步？为什么你可以把事情想到如此简单？为什么你可以对我说出那种话？为什么我们之间要有她的存在？为什么你们之间要有我的存在？为什么我们大家的关系这么复杂？你们要在回一起我成全我没有缠着你们不放啊我已经选择退出为什么总是要把我当成你们分开的理由？为什么你们的话题总是离不开我？我该怎么做才是最好的？是我自己的问题吗？是我自己放不开吗？我已经很努力了。。。给我一点时间好不好？不要再让我习惯你的存在好不好？朋友真的很难当的你知道吗？我的心痛和我的难过。。。结束了好不好。。

我爱他

2009-11-26T17:35:00.003+08:00

整座城市一直等着我但有一段感情还在漂泊
如果还有遗憾又怎么样呢?
伤了痛了懂了
就能好了吗？
曾经依靠彼此的肩旁
如今各自在人海流浪
我爱他轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦狠狠碎过却不会忘
曾为他相信明天就是未来
情节有多坏都不肯醒来
我爱他跌跌撞撞到绝望
我的心深深伤过却不会忘
我和他不再属于这个地方
最初的天堂最终的荒唐
逃不开爱越深越互相伤害
越深的依赖越多的空白
该怎么去爱

仅仅只是朋友

2009-11-26T16:52:00.005+08:00

她开始也挽回了但这次到你不答应你不做任何回应但我比谁都清楚你们只是在赌气很快的你们就会一起了其实我知道这一天一定会到来只是不想去面对而已但这是事实我总要去面对很快的我和你就不再有任何关系仅仅只是朋友也不能再像现在的我们一起出去一起吃饭我再也不能要求你为我做些什么了好难过好心痛才发现原来你对我很重要原来我是需要你的（但只是单方面的我）伤心难过开心快乐想到的都是你真的真的好想你回来我身边但不能你不属于我
我相信你们会幸福的至少我们中还有人能快乐这样就已经足够对吧？

chloe：
从今以后我要习惯没有你的日子
从今以后我要过得比从前更好
从今以后不再怀念以前的我们
从今以后不再想念你
从今以后不再舍不得你
从今以后不再为你流泪
从今以后不再为你心痛
从今以后再也没有洪文皓这个人出现在我身命里
答应我自己-我一定要做到！

明白

2009-11-25T16:11:00.005+08:00

或许你没说或许你没做
可是我感觉到你的不同
在你的眼神那一股閃烁
代表你已做了选择
其实你没错你可以远走
感情事谁都不能去强求
咖啡变谈了还可以加浓
你走了却不会回头

没有你之后我才明白的更多
生命有太多分分合合难免要承受的痛
你看着我来我看着你走
就算捂住耳朵我还能听见你呼吸的温柔
就算我会心痛你的好永远都填满我心中

爱一个人需要缘分
我何苦让自己越陷越深
别傻得用我的天真去碰触那不安的灵魂
每一天只能痴痴地等
爱一个人别太认真
我受伤的眼神令人心疼
没有一个人非要另一个人才能过一生
我又何苦逼自己面对伤痕
我知道我很难过
感情的付出不是真心就会有结果
别问怎么做爱才能长久这道理有一天我会懂
我知道我很难过
昨天是恋人今天说分手就分手
别问痛要怎么解脱多情的人注定伤得比较久
爱若变成了刺思念也变成了痴
也许心碎就是爱情最美的样子

关于爱情我们都想得太好
总是在伤害中才学会思考
如果时间不是往前跑你在身旁那有多好

我爱你

2009-11-25T13:09:00.006+08:00

~※→因為愛你.所以放手還你自由←※~

~※→因為愛你.所以不再讓你困擾←※~

~※→因為愛你.所以我逼自己離開←※~

~※→因為愛你.所以我希望她回到你身边←※~

~※→因為愛你.所以寧願自己難過←※~

但

如果我還一直深愛著你...你是否還會待在我身邊?

如果我還一直在乎著你...你是否會再多看我一眼?

是否我已不存在了...你才感覺的到我的離開?

是否我已離開了....你才感覺的到我對你的好?

Chloe: 你永远都不会感觉到吧！因为我已不再你心里！
好怀念你刚开始爱上我的那一天虽然我不知道这天是否存在
（但就算是骗自己也好！我仍然选择相信）

Working is tired - sunday (the last day)

2009-11-24T00:04:00.020+08:00

sunday 22th nov - the second day and also the last day of my work.
i was late for work on that day..bcoz of someone..=.= he promised to fetch me to work but he did not, he woke up late coz his phone no battery.. alarm cannot work and i cannot called him up as well..i waited him till 9am. at last i asked nee to drive..(coz my leg was injured, cannot drive) if not we will be late!

pictures time:
me with the cadbury chocolate.. looks tasty !

the 4 of us..(we look so sweet- muaxx)

me and my lovely lily..she yang intro me this job..enjoy lots wit u~ muaxx !

me and nee incharge of this game on sunday..a very tired job.. we have to keep go and pick up the ball from floor (the balls always ran far away)..ish ! (coz my leg was injured.. nee help lots) thx !

the instruction board - the game called FINAL BOSS- how to play it ? let me tell u.. seem like easy but very hard to play..i tried ! 2 points - 5 balls.. which mean you have 5 chances..throw the balls in to any hole out of the three, stand at the distance that already fixed, at least 3 balls in..then u will get prizes..

after the day of work.. my leg cannot walk anymore..bengkak d.. when reached home..straight away went to clinic d..coz seriously cannot walk d..=.= aikss!
my leg macam ni - like the pig's leg >.<

it was a very good experience , this job was interesting and fun.. i noe lots of frens from there.. the main problem i face was they all banana..lol all cannot speak chinese one..plus my english is bad..how we communicate then ? aikss..haha.. simply talk lo..like a duck talk wit a chicken..haha !
THE END FOR MY TWO DAYS JOB ! THANKS LILY ~ I HAD LOTS OF FUN ALTHOUGH MY LEG WAS SO PAIN & TIRED ! MISS U ALL FRENS =D

Working is tired - Saturday( first day)

2009-11-23T16:27:00.014+08:00

this was the first day of working - saturday 21st nov 9am-10pm (a long hour job) my god!
we need to reached there at 9.00am and my leg was injured in that morning when i was preparing to work..ish~ so pain.. my leg kena the plug..and blood..>< how am i goin to work like that ? but no choice..i have to.. i still went to work with the pain.
me @ nee

vanessa (lily's buddy) she is pretty..=)

Abbie(a new fren)

me with the cadbury shirt..

show u all those games prepared by Cadbury (all are interesting):
this is cowboy zone..total four games there.. but i am not clear wat are the games coz i was not incharge of this..hee

cowboy look..who ever incharge of this area have to wear the cowboy hat.

virtual games..

pinball (not much ppl like dis game coz damn boring) jus put in the ball that given and if ur ball go into the red color box..then u can win the prize.

this is called fishing wor.. pick up 5 things from the swimming pool except balls within 45 seconds then u can get everthing that u had pick up .. inside the swimming pool included cadbury chocolate,cadbury notebook, cadbury puzzle and etc (was a very tough game coz time is limited)

key chain- coloring the key chain..the most busy area..lots of kids like to coloring..ppl who incharge of this is damn cham,,lots of job to do and so dirty! haha..luckily i was not incharge of this part! fiu ~

green color monster- how to play wit it ? tell u in the next blog..coz i was incharge of this game on sunday 22th nov..=)

In Saturdat 21st nov.. i was incharge of a game called CATCH IT:

the chair inside the box have to take it out geh.. is use for kids to climb in to the box..
instruction- 2points to get 1 chance- when u go in to the box.. we will on the machine and gt wind inside to blow the objects.. you have to catch at least 8 purple flying objects(but the instruction board jus wrote 8 flying object, did not mention must b purple color, i scolded by some customer >.<) and which must on the air -flying object but (many ppl pick up on the floor =.=) especially kids although i had already told them about that..but they also pick up on the floor..tak akan i scold them rite.. have to give prize also if they catch 8- therefore..i scolded by the boss =.=

many people liked this game..coz it was challeging- very tough to catch 8 purple flying object u noe..have teknik one.. many ppl did not wan to listen to me,,swt ~
this boy liked this game very much.. played again and again..haha..

the MC was inside demo-ing with kids...she can always catch 8 purple flying objects..coz she have teknik(which i learned it from her)..geng !

that's all for Saturday.. said that 9am - 10pm but we had to clean up after that..>.<
i reached home at 12am then..ish~ OT d .. after that i went for movie(2012) wit my family(late for half and hour =.=)..coz the ticket already bought on thursday..nice movie..damn scary.. will it really happen in year 2012?
" A very tired saturday that i never been b4 "... haha..
one more day (sunday)- update on tmr ya.. tired d..hee

Working is very tired - Friday (briefing)

2009-11-23T15:39:00.013+08:00

so busy in this few days.. now only can updated my blog..after went for the briefing on friday 20th nov... wat actually i should do is to guided ppl to play games wor..(is interesting) not promote chocolate..(damn boring)haha..ppl who purchase any CADBURY CHOCOLATE RM10 or above, they will get points.. RM10 = 10 points.. they can use those points to play any games that prepared by CADBURY..
still in the progress..this pic was took on friday..

the stuff all busying on arranging the stock !took on friday also.

everyone can purchase the cadbury chocolate in this area.. lots of stock..huhu~ i also bought lots..=D

the event, organized by CADBURY ~ and i was worked at there..=)

free of stress right now !

2009-11-20T01:40:00.006+08:00

yeah~ i am so happy.. all assignment presentation and midterm done ! can relax for 2 weeks from now.. but jus only 2 weeks.. aikss.. bcoz final exam is coming soon..in week 9 i think..now already week5 and week 6 is start on this coming monday.. my god.. so fast! but after final, holidays coming lu.. yupi~ i love holidays.. i need it..to rest.. i am so tired with my life..i dun really enjoy my uni life.. is so stressful ~
jus now my classmate(lily) intro me a part time job, a event in pyramid on sat and sun...promote chocolate i think..hee.. not so sure..tmr goin to the briefing..at 3pm.. then i will noe it better..one day $100.. worth to work it not ? whole day wor..aikss..sure very tired! no choice..i need money..hee..feel excited..coz i dun hav much working experience.. hope will b a good experience ~ all the best !

原来你没想像中爱我

2009-11-18T21:17:00.003+08:00

你小心翼翼牵我手
其实是朋友藏不住我
自尊也投降活在她之下
我好傻
你字字句句说你不爱她
那又是什么让你害怕
我疑惑的是原谅以为你留下
我好傻

我不懂
该拿什么安慰我的难受
你的存在让我更脆弱
你寸步不离像天使的她
挥霍我的爱从不放在心上
我有一丝无奈
也有一些明白
该放开

不是我不说就不再遗空等候
我不能再从你的怀抱感觉到什么
别爱我别再说假装爱
那是洒盐在伤口
原来你从来都没深刻爱我
我才懂不是我不心痛
其实是心没了感觉

无能为力

2009-11-17T23:28:00.004+08:00

承诺太沉重
你背不到最后
任凭我独自堕落
是我太执着
就像那残留的灼火
微微弱弱颤抖
无法忘记无法痊愈
我越是清醒越怕失去你
怪我太任性
只盼时间将伤痕抹去
恨你我无能为力
你和谁创造新回忆
我一个人的悲剧
不奢求你的感激
用所有爱过的回忆原谅着你
恨自己不能把过去放弃
此刻我却无能为力
我们的爱变成了我自己的悲剧

突然好想你

2009-11-14T21:13:00.010+08:00

心情突然变得很闷
又是因为你吗？
是的
突然好想你！好想见你！
我的眼泪又忍不住掉下了
我到底怎么了？
不是都处理得很好吗？
为什么又落泪了？
我以为我已经解脱了不是吗？
原来没有是我自己骗自己吗？
我说过要放下你的！我到底在干嘛？
突然想起那时候的我们那么的甜蜜你都记得吗？偶尔会想起吗？

chloe：放弃一个爱你的人不难放弃一个你很爱的人真的真的很难我真的快承受不住了！我伪装得很辛苦能不能不要再伪装能不能让我痛哭一番就今天！ T_T

NEWAY~

2009-11-13T20:31:00.010+08:00

went neway with my cousin (YEN) today 12-3pm.. only 2 of us..hee.. and spent only RM11.50 only.. damn cheap huh.. bcoz of member price. thank you lay sin for borrowed me her member card ! muaxx... the card still here..when gonna return it to her ?
sharing some pics wit u all for sure ~ hee..

actually will goin for movie (2012) with him and frens at 12pm later.. but...........
haiz.. who am i goin to watch wit then ? i wanna watch this movie ! sakit kepala nia..too many ppl date d.. dunno who to go wit..haha jkjk... i wanna date ppl actually..hee.. who to date leh ? still in the progress of thinking..planning only i decide..n_n like a big project nia..haha..jus to watch a movie wei..so ma fan for wat >.<

他 - 真的受伤了

2009-11-13T15:59:00.008+08:00

我听见了你的心碎声我不知道该怎么去安慰你受伤的人安慰受伤的人可以吗？觉得很可笑！自己的伤都无法复原要怎样去安慰你呢？但只要你需要我我都会在你身边（已好朋友的身份）直到你不再需要我我真的希望我可以帮你走出来但有心无力我能做的并不多这种事必须靠自己吧? 我不想看到这样的你一点都不像我认识的你你总觉得我不明白你的痛其实我比任何人都懂那种痛只是在你面前我伪装的很好我知道要你放下她很难你们相处的时间也已经是以年来计算了也已经是一种习惯时间现在的你最需要时间但时间真的能冲淡一切吗？我相信能总有一天一切都会结束会有一个结局 ‘现在的我们都会觉得现在当前所发生的事很挫折，痛苦，难受但当一切都雨过天晴后回头想想可能会发现今日我们所经历的一切并不是想像中那么严重是我们把它看得太重了流泪心痛崩溃其实这些都是一种成长是它让我们长大是它让我们更懂什么叫爱’ 这就叫做人生吧？（这句话是SHE-Hebe所说的）我很赞同！

chloe：习惯也是时间累计下来的吧？我相信时间也会把习惯换掉。。。对吗？

最爱的人却伤我最深

2009-11-12T00:22:00.005+08:00

对你的思念是一天又一天
孤单的我还是没有改变
美丽的梦何时才能出现
亲爱的你好想再见你一面
你的心到底在想些什么
为什么留下这个结局让我承受
最爱你的人是我你怎么舍得我难过
在我最需要你的时候没有说一句话就走
对你付出了这么多你却没有感动过

chloe：好想忘记所有的一切~ 回到原来的自己这么残忍的结局我该如何承受呢？
付出了这么多结果竟是如此我做错什么了吗？为什么要这样对我？这是我应该得到的结果吗？
又有谁能回答我？

my darlings ~

2009-11-11T23:54:00.012+08:00

theo was coming back last week.. so we had a reunion.. we went greenbox (AEON BUKIT TINGGI) jus nearby my house.. we went there around 12 something and theo was rushinng back at 4 pm bcoz of her aunty wedding dinner..although jus few hours but we had lots of fun there.. miss you lots theo ~

The three of US ~

theo and me

adelyn and me
(took pictures b4 we goin back to prove that we went greenbox) see the big greenbox logo..lols~

my favourite kitty cat.. wanna bring it back..haha

i always saying that DORAEMON is the bf of HELLO KITTY ! ^^

nichi fitting room.. jus for capture pics but did not buy..haha.. this is our habit!

NEW BLOG !

2009-11-11T22:25:00.003+08:00

旧的blog出现了一些问题，所以重做我也把之前所有的blog都移过来了！
最近都在忙着考试,assignment& presentation 好烦很压力但终于都差不多了只剩下一科下个礼拜五截日很想赶快把它给完成就可以松一口气了。
他果然真的这样做了他约了我和她一起去看戏我拒绝了但她既然没有意见答应了显得我很没有风度 >.< 我真的做不到我不知道应该怎样去面对她他告诉我说大家都是朋友为什么就不能一起见面他说的也没错但我还是不能同意见了面应该会很尴尬吧！我相信没有人会像他一样这么做他就是这样不管是想法还是做法都跟人家与众不同是我太小气了吗？为什么常常觉得他都不会顾虑到我的感受很讨厌这种感觉很难受也不知道要怎样去面对唉~

chloe：我很生气但从不会在他面前表现出来所有的苦都自己扛！我的痛又有谁能了解？但这就是我不想为难他的我！

怎样做才好？

2009-11-11T22:24:00.001+08:00

最近发生了很多事很多我预想不到的事为什么你真的可以当作若无其事像什么事都没有发生过我已经处理好我的心情为什么你还要打扰呢？我的不好受你了解吗？你完全不能感受你只知道你自己。。最近的你生病了我心疼了我到底要怎样才能放下你不管呢？我到底几时才做得到呢？我真的很想放下一切什么都不管但我却做不到你告诉我说她不答应你的挽留她需要时间但她最近常常跟一个她的追求者出去你很介意你问我怎么办？你要我怎样去回答你？我真的佩服你完全的不用想想我的感受还说要我跟她说我们没有什么我们只是朋友这一句只是朋友从你嘴里说出心如刀割我的天啊～但如果你真的要我这样做的我一定会做我不管自己有多难过只要你好就好你开心就好我不知道应该要怎么做对你我她才是最好的其实我希望我们不要再联络对你和她会比较好会吗？为什么你不选择这样做呢？我宁可你狠心一点对我

chloe：要来就来要走就走我到底算什么？这一切什么时候才会结束？

我又爱又恨的他

2009-11-11T22:23:00.005+08:00

曾经答应过我的事已经来不及完成了我们的槟城之旅我对你的期待全部一扫而空我唯一觉得幸运的是我曾经与你的云顶之旅或许你从来都不懂也永远都不会懂我曾经最想和心爱的人去的旅行地方就是云顶就是那么简单的云顶总觉得云顶很浪漫冷冷的很适合情侣去你真的实现了我的愿望谢谢你我的开心是你永远都不会了解的但我真的没有想到那是我们第一也是最后一次的旅行真的很讽刺自己都觉得很可笑你告诉我你现在终于懂了你说你爱过我但是是曾经你告诉我她比任何东西还要重要你说你不是没有顾虑到我的感受但是在你告诉我她对你有多重要时你想过我的感受了吗？或许你有你知道我会伤心难过但你还是做了因为我的感受你并不在乎我的感受对你来说并不重要对吧！你是自私的爱情是自私的人都是自私的吧我才终于明白我对你来说什么都不是我的付出都是透明的吗？付出得越多伤得越深我真正的感受到这句话心痛的感觉是如何？我也真正的感受到了心痛真的很痛伤害我最深的人不是别人而是我最深爱的你除了对不起你还能对我说些什么？两次的伤害我心碎了你能还我完整的真心吗？你说你不知道要怎样补偿？别傻了你要用什么来补偿？算了吧我最后还是选择原谅你因为太爱了但你却告诉我说我们都爱错了做错了同样的说这句话前你想过我的感受了吗？你没有～我那么的爱你而你却告诉我我们之间是爱错了我才明白我真的爱错了我爱上了一个这样的你这样伤害我而不会心疼的你曾经这么的认为我不会后悔爱过你因为曾经的我是幸福的我错了从头到尾我都不应该爱上你为什么你要出现在我人生里我以为是缘分但你却离开有缘无分既然离开了为什么又要回头我以为你发现我对你是重要的我又错了但既然回来了为什么又一次的离开呢? 因为发现你并不是爱我的.. 这次你是永远的离开我了我不会再奢望你回来因为你已不值得我等待你问我？我们可以成为好朋友吗？听到这句话时我愣住了我不知道如何回答我能吗？我能像你一样若无其事的当什么事都没发生过当你是朋友吗？我需要你这个朋友吗？我没有答案但我知道现在的我是做不到的要从爱人变为朋友很难吧？那是个多么大的分别啊？但我相信有一天我做得到虽然我不知道那一天是哪一天但我会期待那一天的到来就算哪一天我们在路上遇到我也可以很自然地笑着跟你说声谢谢因为你让我更懂得爱也成长了不少现在的我虽然暂时被爱情打败了也对爱没有任何的期望但我相信那不是永恒的有一天我会遇见我对的那个他。。

chloe：如果从新地再让我选择我会选择从来都没有认识过你这样我们就不会彼此伤害？
如果从新地再让我选择我还是会选择同一条路因为爱过你是我最幸福的事？
同样的我心里没有答案！或许这答案根本就不重要了。。
被伤害得这么深对他的爱却一点都不曾减少为什么？
是因为我对你的爱太深？太深是多深？或许我自己也不清楚可能很深也可能没有我想象中的深
唯一最清楚的应该只有老天爷只有天知道我有多么爱你！
常常觉得你好幸运哦有两个这么爱你的女生你却不懂得珍惜把他们都伤害了。。
曾经的你是属于我的现在的你已不属于我了好想念你望着我的眼神但我再也看不见了

你不必再爱我

2009-11-11T22:23:00.002+08:00

你留下的外套我舍不得还那是我们之间仅剩的相关但把回忆撑开看需要多勇敢感情在风雪里流逝得太快快得就连再见都没说完抓紧彼此的手我们却还是走散你不必再爱我你尽管放开反正时间总会把爱冲淡至少我学会了爱情就美在遗憾你不必再爱我谁也别为难让我怀念一会我会离开转身对你挥手不让眼泪流下来你不必再爱我我学着释怀原来相爱总比想念短暂至少我记住了你的笑有多灿烂你不必再爱我谁也别心软你留下的什么我都不换拥抱了所有温暖就像你还在我身旁那一句我爱你我们都说得太晚

chloe：一切都只能怪我当初的不告而别一直陪在你身边人的是她我没有权利要你留下你需要的是她不是我那一句我爱你我说得太晚！

亲爱的。。

2009-11-11T22:22:00.001+08:00

越是抱紧你越感受裂缝最害怕的终于成真了决定却比想象中还沉重我多想相信你也不舍得否着那些陌生简讯声震动了你怎么还没走最亲爱的最后最远离了最美好的最后最是痛了我宁愿你是对的伤人的拉扯不如哭着自由最亲爱的最后最遗憾了最该走的最后最难转身我真的被爱过了你才要我先割舍不是吗亲爱的

chloe：一瞬间，就能爱上一个人，但是忘记一个人需要多少个一瞬间呢？？

A boring sunday ~ =(

2009-11-11T22:20:00.003+08:00

sunday~ but i am jus stay at home blogging..kesian nia..no 1 invite me for outing..cheh~ next tuesday goin to have our marketing midterm.. but i havent start study at all.. plan to study later .. hope can finish it..(no mood)
went pyramid wit cousin yesterday.. nee wanna buy a birthday present for her bf..we shop quite a long time only get it. we went converse, extreme, wild channel, encho park, 2pm, and finally she bought a quick silver purse .. quite nice.. cost RM 80 after discount..worth huh !! after bought the present. shopping time.. i bought a shirt at aphee.. and a jeans skirt i cannot get it coz no more size..aikss.. i like it eh~ (save money ba) hee~

b4 goin.. take a pic in the car.. hee n_n

reached there.. the first things to do - CAMWHORES

our lunch at " gasoline" is the spelling rite ?

nee and her sister yen - and i am enjoying my lunch when they are busying on capture..haha..

思念

2009-11-11T22:20:00.002+08:00

怎么隐藏我的悲伤失去你的地方你的发香散得匆忙我已经跟不上闭上眼睛还能看见你离去的痕迹在月光下一直找寻那想念的身影如果说分手是苦痛的起点那在终点之前我愿意在爱一遍想要对你说的不敢说的爱会不会有人可以明白我会发着呆然后忘记你接着紧紧闭上眼想着哪一天会有人代替让我不再想念你我会发着呆然后微微笑接着紧紧闭上眼又想了一遍你温柔的脸在我忘记之前心里的眼泪模糊了视线你已快看不见

chloe：我相信总有一天会有人代替你让我不再想念你。。

爱情是不公平

2009-11-11T22:19:00.001+08:00

走了那么远发现你不在身边独自走过了什么自己都不了解未来的蓝图应该有你不该只剩叹气只是偶尔泪流不停坚强的理由只是自己骗自己你眼中的恐惧说什么都多余付出的一切值不值得永远不会有答案只有天知道我有多么爱你一颗心属于一个人在爱情里什么算公平爱的深也伤得深是不是罪灭了自己一颗心属于我自己爱情里找不到公平而当你最后选择了逃避我学会不公平本来就不公平

Chloe：在三个人的爱情世界里总有一个人会受伤三个人从不对等总有个人必须牺牲而我选择用原谅去面对他恨一个人是辛苦的

can't sleep at the night !

2009-11-11T22:16:00.001+08:00

can't sleep .. so on my laptop and blogging.. dunno y can't sleep.. lying down for a long hours d.. aikss.. my mind can't be empty nia..keep thinking of something.. dun have to rest eh u - i mean my brain..hee
he msg me jus now around 1 something - asked me wat i wanna noe..=.= siao ! i did not want to noe anything also..should be wat he wanna tell me ma.. aikss.. APA LA~ blur nia...i also dun wanna talk so much to him so jus switch off my phone. give me sometime ba..i noe he realize that i treat him so cool.. but i really cannot forgive him right now..i am still angry on wat he had done to me..is so hurt. BUT i noe that i will forgive him soon..coz i am not really angry on him also.. aikss..stupid huh~ coz actually is not his wrong...LOVE IS BLIND ~ he dunno wat he want also..and i should not gave him the chance to hurt me for the second time..my wrong actually !!

chloe: 你终于知道你要的是什么了答应我好好地爱她好好地对她不要再让她伤心流泪我相信你已学会珍惜- 这样我的离开才是值得的！！

End of today ~

2009-11-11T22:14:00.000+08:00

I was in btw of dunno wanna go to c him or not to goin.. but finally he dint msg me at all.. the person who ask me to out for listen his explanation is him.. the person who dint out also him.. what he want i really dunno..SWT ~ mayb is good also not to c him.. coz i really dunno how to face him.. and i dunno wat to talk to him also..just to listen for his feeling ? (how much he love that girl)i dun wan to noe.. let him noe my feeling ? wat for ? it is not important anymore..and he wont care..better just throw it away (the stupid feeling)....YOU - GO AWAY FROM ME !!!!

chloe: end of today.. have a rest ba.. i am tired..night!

ish~

2009-11-11T22:09:00.003+08:00

went greenbox wit my babe (adelyn)jus now..around 1pm.. i dint sing much songs today coz something was happened.. i received his calls and msg (but i dint answered and replied) but i replied at the end =.= he asked me y din answer him..he asked me is it dun wanna contact wit him anymore.. haiz.. myself also dunno actually.. i decided not to continue contact wit him but i will always shake my mind..aiksss.. bodoh ~ he tell me that he hope i will understand wat ever he had done.. (actually i do just feel unfair to myself) but love is always unfair~
i decided to c him on to9 later.. he goin to let me understand..(i was worry i cannot accept wat he say later) how should i goin to response later ? wat reaction should i give him ? (i think i noe wat he goin to tell me) worrying~
i hope i will feel better after listen for his explanation but..how love can be explain? haiz! dun think so much.. let him go ~ although i still love him so much ~ this is what i can do right now...jus bcoz he do not love me anymore!

chloe：再见了- 皓（i have to）虽然会难过虽然会流泪虽然不舍得- 是玩笑还是考验我们缘分那么浅（老天跟我开了个很大的玩笑）

祝他们幸福。。

2009-11-11T22:08:00.000+08:00

今天看到了一个不知应该看还是不应该看的video 他为了挽留他前女友做的好感动哦是关于他们的故事我终于明白了我看到了他对她的爱我不怪他我明白三个人总有一个会被牺牲（那就是我）爱情是不公平的爱情是自私的你走吧我会好好的过（不用担心）http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oxWmgAWkaEU

chloe: 我爱你所以我希望你幸福我看见了你们是幸福的

我不爱了～

2009-11-11T22:07:00.001+08:00

我想我并不聪明我没有你的机灵在爱情变质之前我没反应没察觉你的表情你知道我不聪明所以才选择放弃放弃去猜你每一个反应去猜你是否变心放弃你放弃爱情放弃了所有权利连自己都知道这不公平放弃你放弃自己放弃了爱的权利放弃你等于放弃我自己你知道我不聪明所以我选择放弃放弃去猜该如何留住你放弃了所有回忆。。

chloe：我该醒来了我该放弃了我已经被伤得没有力气了我累了我不爱了- 说不爱就真的能不爱吗? 说放就真的能放吗？付出的感情收不回再美的爱情回忆里待续

最好的结局

2009-11-11T14:01:00.000+08:00

传闻你和她的相遇是多么美丽而我的存在是多余听了太多也累了我们之间也晚了别再继续纠缠不清我不能放弃自己去讨好你那不是我自己如果你爱她就别再错下去我不像你相象中的那么脆弱分手已成了定局在她发现之前忘了你就为了我的命运就为了你的决定就请别让她哭泣分离已是最好的结局

chloe：如果你爱她我愿意退出爱无发强求你回去吧～我累了